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[Mar. 14th, 2006|09:21 am] |
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Nothing new, in a depressed mood for whatever reason. I assume its mainly due looking back at a rough a time of my life. Regardless, its something that's always going to be there and have to go threw it seems. Still looking for a job. |
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| I don't know how to classify this, sigil malintention? |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|09:56 pm] |
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So I fire off a sigil for a fuck buddy earlier today. Not a biggie. Sad thing is, is whatever force guides/manifests them decided to make it a damn internet cyber-buddy it seems. Why couldn't it have been like some simple coincidental thing like someone I knew back in HS decides to have the hots for me or even that one girl that I had a crush on but nooo. Never the real thing, always digital. My subconsious(the force theorized to cause the manifestation of sigils) is fucking retarded as hell. |
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| Prophetic Dreams |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|07:07 am] |
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Last night I had a disturbing dream that my parents were on the brink of divorce. The main thing I recall was that my mother spoke of was that they didn't have anything in common. I don't remeber what else was spoken of but I recall battling some demon near the end of the dream. Thats about it for that. Otherwise i've been working on remebering LBRH |
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| Item 1 down...still need to pick up/build more |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|03:23 pm] |
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I went down to the shore with my parents saturday-sunday. There was a flea market and I saw some cool things. Sadly enough they didn't have an incense seller like they did that one year. Anyway I saw a sword that would fit as a Ritual sword at the one vender. Amazingly enough I got it for a fraction of the original price(50 bucks) which was 28 dollars. Ofcourse my parents bitched about it. Anyway, I still need to make a Triangle of Art and the staff and the disc. |
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| Back sorta |
[Jun. 15th, 2005|07:41 am] |
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| | Existance - Guilty Gear LA Vocal Edition | ] |
Things have really shifted as of the late. I quit my old job when I got a new one. I lost that job yeasterday to the Chef saying I was "Fucking around" for the past 2 weeks which is absolute bullshit. The jackass sent me home so many times for no reason besides having too many dishwashers at the time. I told him "You give what you get"(I was being paid shit for what I was doing) and he was baffled at my words, asking for an explanation and I told him it again. How most people are morons. Onto the Occult topic- I've been trying to reach an OBE/Astral Projection with this CD I picked up but I've had little results besides my body feeling different and my dreams being more memorable and almost lucid. A few months ago when I was walking home I saw something within my third eye. It would be blasphemous for me to call it "God" but it felt like it was linked to the Great Will(God/Tao/Creator in other words). It had a total of 9 heads, 8 on the outside like a Chaos Star and one in the center with color changing spiral-circles between each of the outer heads which squirmed(They were very much like the Rei "heads" that came out of the Proto-type Evas from The End of Evangelion). The center head was slightly alienish(as if the entire thing wasn't) and didn't move for the 2-3 seconds I saw it. It was a beautiful yet bizarre entity. Other than that, the only other spirit I've "seen" was my servitor, Gigil. It evolved from its original form of a slimey green-bodied eyeball into a green-toned tanned muscular figure with 3 eyes adorned in barbarian gear. In other news, I still need to work on crafting a summoning(evoking) circle and gear. |
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| Result x 2 |
[Jan. 16th, 2005|10:15 pm] |
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Seems my ritual is more potent then I expected. I ended up getting laid twice. I need to pick up the spray paint from my work for the circle. |
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| Insanity |
[Jan. 5th, 2005|11:48 am] |
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So, my "Damning the Chaste Whore" ritual worked...a little bit, but it did work. However, last night I had a heavy hallucination of a symbol/being forming before me. The form appeared to a 14 pointed-gram of a purplish-blue hue with an eye(This part i'm not sure of exactly, but I believe it to be) in the middle of it. It was too strong and different feeling to be a mere hallucination. |
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| Day 4 |
[Dec. 24th, 2004|08:18 am] |
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Exercises occured as usual. Some reason I can never visualize enough to accually see what is before me, I can "feel" it perse, but never see it. Its odd. However, I hear about other training techniques and I might start adding them in. Oh well. Oh yes....Googlemancy is fun, it fucks with peoples heads if you know how to do it correctly |
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| Training Day...aww fuck, I should just keep numbers here (Day 3) |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|06:22 am] |
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| | Call of Ktulu - Metallica | ] |
So at the hour of 2 AM did I commence the usual exercise, turned off all lights and tried to remove all sources of light. I keep seeing(literally) a problem. Anytime I enter this exercise I somehow open my eyes a tad bit. This evening the exercise was very much so like the others save my visualization may be slowly working. In anycase, as of yeasterday I crafted another servitor by the name of Adinal. I have yet to give this formless mass of energy an appearance or a purpose or a way of feeding. Gigil seems content upon the sigils I glitterbombed all over the area.
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New Theories on Ghosts-
As it seems ghosts tend to be seen the most in a pre-mortis form within a mirror or the such. Pictures of faces of people in mirrors and tv screens validates this as well as the old tale of "Bloody Mary". The orb phenomena is probably the will/(perhaps thats not a good term for this case but I shall use it anyway) astral form of the spectre. As for what occurs with use magick users when we die confuses me a bit. Do we become a lich-like entity with a bit more power(1) than other ghosts or do we ascend(descend) depending upon the path and rituals done in life? The only case I know of Lichdom is the Blair Witch(2) as that spectre seems to have enough control to mind fuck(Hallucinations, breaking shit, controlling animals, noises, keeping her victims lost, and screwing people over more than any other ghost I've heard of save for the Amityville(3) Horror case). Also, as it seems Evocation seems to be the current goal(That and Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel), I wonder if it is possible to summon the dead with Evocation. I don't know enough about "true" Necromancy however.
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1. Well, considering the spellcaster(sorcerers, magis, witch, ect) commands energy/power over other realms/planes and minds for effects, that should be transfered. However, a book I read gave me the idea that there is a "second" death upon the astral plane where the Ego(Individuality of the person) seperates from the personality(the will of the ghost) Perhaps the idea that cracking the code of reality can't be done by those manifested upon that reality might be true.
2. There is some facts behind Blair Witch Legend, regardless if the movie(s) was false.
3. I bring this up due to the fact its one of the more "believed" stories and from what my grandmother tells me(Now mind you, this is my "adoptive" grandmother as my mom isn't biologically related to her) i'm related to the family that was slaughtered by the enraged son. I also believe the massacre was due to personal demons manifested to great extents/and or perhaps some dabbling in arts not meant for the weak. |
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| Training, day 2 |
[Dec. 22nd, 2004|02:59 am] |
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| | Fundamentally Loathsome - Marilyn Manson | ] |
I was about 30 minutes late browsing over Texts. Supposedly theres urban myths saying that the text of Conversation and Knowledge of the Holy Guardian Angel attracts hostile spirits. Its all bullshit, thats what I must say. However I do not quite know about the dangers when evoking the arch-demons to force them into oaths after the meet up with the H.G.A. In anycase, my training occured as this- began with turning off everything, second was lighting the incense(Gods, how my mother bitches about that) and third was the usual 1-2-3-4 breathing exercises. I was getting somewhat comfortable and trying to visualize the golden light orb when my brothers fuckin Cell phone goes off with that fucking gay Mario sound he has on. This pissed me off but I regain posture and repeated the 1-2-3-4. Then I began to visualize again yet I saw nothing this eve. However I did notice something shift within the darkness. The feeling of the light being pulled in was felt a tad bit stronger than last evening. |
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| Training, day 1 |
[Dec. 21st, 2004|02:48 pm] |
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I've decided that 2 am is a good time for my astral sight training due to the fact its around the "Witching hour" and the fact everyone is generally asleep by then. While I wasn't able to visulize the Golden orb, I did however feel it. That is all |
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| Preparing |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|11:11 pm] |
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I have finally cleaned up most of my room so I can build my temple(Evocation reasons). As for now I'm deciding on the dimensions and magick circle i'll be using as my circle. I still need the "triangle". As for tools, I have to fix my staff and get a new sword. All I can do for now is train my astral senses and continue to build... |
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| Cause my friend said so :P |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|10:59 am] |
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| | Fuunami - GTA 2 Soundtrack? | ] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Moll(Gods do I hate that name)
2. Myke
3. Naqyup(Occult-based name ofcourse)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. InfernalNytemare
2. CellJrSuprme
3. Lavatos
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. The fact i'm losing weight
2. My knowledge of certain stuff
3. My ever growing weapon collection
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight
2. Not having a liscence/car
3. This shitty job(Hopefully that'll be changing as of monday)
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. English
2. Scotish
3. German
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing the last bits of sanity I have left
2. Being kicked out of my house
3. Getting really old
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My books
2. My wallet
3. My computer?
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Sneakers
2. Sweatpants
3. Sweatshirt
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists(at the moment)):
1. Cradle of Filth
2. Slayer
3. Daisuke Ishiwatari(If I had more of Infernal Necromancy's stuff, they'd probably be here....long live Japanese Black Metal!!)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Hollowed Be thy Name; Iron Maiden
2. Awe of She(Remix); Daisuke Ishiwatari
3. Worry in the house of thieves; Deicide
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Getting a car
2. Somehow quitting cigarettes
3. a real shinken katana(lmao)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Great Sex
2. Not losing all my fuckin money
3. A Loyal, Happy, Caring, Loving Partner
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. My gut hurts
2. Nothing is True
3. I'm high
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Breasts
2. Eyes
3. Ass
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Quit cigarettes
2. Getting laid
3. Summoning Satan!!
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Occult-related activites
2. Card games
3. Halo(It is its own hobby)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to sleep
2. Shrooms
3. Practice with my katana
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Mortician
2. Writter
3. Translator
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Netherlands
2. China
3. Japan
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Amy(Female)
2. Kael(Male)
3. I don't have another one yet...heh
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Attain enough enlightenment
2. Become a master of one martial arts style
3. Get married
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. None of my friends are really on this LJ, ha. |
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| Random shit |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|10:49 am] |
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As of the late i've been fixing up a magick mirror and working on a ritual I've entitled "Damning the Chaste Whore". I'll post it when I get it done, its a bit off the wall, kinda mixing chaos magick with ceremonial. I still need to work on my circle and these astral practices. So thats what i'm planning to work on till the material needed to do the "Damning the Chaste Whore" ritual arrives. |
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| Scrying |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|06:46 pm] |
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Last night I decided to try to scry with the black mirror I have. While I didn't get what I expected, I did hallucinate a bit as I stared into the abyss behind the glass. With some practice and perhaps some learning/reading, I should do better. I did however do the ritual again and while nothing occured like before(I personally believe I got the directions all fucked up, ect) I did get feelings when vibrating the names. Thats all for now |
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| Entry 1(Lesser Pentagram Ritual) |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|12:52 am] |
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| | Freezing Black-Stained Universe ~ Infernal Necromancy | ] |
Friday(December 3rd) around 3-4am I practiced the Lesser Pentagram Ritual in my friends house when everyone was asleep. I did however mess up on signs and forgot to draw the pentagrams at each central direction a few times. However, when I did the ritual completely correct a hexagram within a circle ignited(I don't know if thats the correct wording for it) around me(even in the small space I was in, the circle "went" into the walls perse) and I felt its energy around my lower torso(another note- I was in a closet preforming this ritual and I was sitting down). I should atleast practice this ritual once per night till I have it memorized then I shall move onto the Greater Pentagram Ritual. Till next time, take care...
=Such are the words= |
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